Introduction

Most women my age,, well let me take that back, MANY women my age have reached a few milestones, a marriage and some babies. I have reached none of that. In search of enlightenment, career and just having a great fucking time, I seemed to have missed the boat.

Most women, I mean many woman do things in this order
Marriage/House/Children

Not me.

I skipped the marriage boat. Its not that I wanted to take it, ohh I always dreamed of being married. When I met the man of my dreams, we were too young, then the other opportunities that came along did not fit,, I loved him, he did not love me. He loved me, I skeeved him. He would make a great husband, but in a few years he would be coming out. Reunite with the love of your life but he is detained at the moment. Not in prison, but married with children and living in another country. Typical . So I learned to that if you want anything in this world , sometimes you need to go just get it yourself.

Two years ago , when I was 44 I bought my own house. Next I began to think, children.
Children ?
What the hell was I thinking, I hated the children water cooler talk at work, I didn't even hang with my friend's kids or my nieces and nephews. I even remember seeing an Oprah show about motherless women, and thought , " I would be cool about that"
I love tequila, and going out, and thinking about,,, MYSELF !
But something snapped, when I was making up my questroom in my new house, I found myself buying things for kids to be in the room.
I made it into a little classroom, so my niece and my friends kids could play school.
I turned it into a kids room ! ?????

The only explanation for me , was now that I was turning 44 , my biological window was closing, like NOW , so I quess it got me thinking , but of course, I was husbandless, and boyfriendless, I even lost my decade old fuck buddy .

The next week I was at ANOTHER baby shower. I dont know what water the women are drinking at work, but besides flouride, I believe fertility is also in the water, EVERYONE IS PREGNANT. So I asked my co-worker how she got pregnant, she was not seeing anyone in particular.
"On my own" , she says.
What ? How could you afford fertility on a teacher's salary ? When she said that it was covered under our insurance.
You get 3 tries.

This was an opportunity I could not miss. And something I just discovered I could afford !
My biological clock was on the last snooze button, I couldn't hit it anymore !
If was going to do this I had to do it now !